KARMA

I may have written a post like this before, but here it goes.

I realize that I am one of those people (or people who are aware that) God punishes.
That's right PUNISHES! DISCIPLINES! HUMBLES!

out of love of course.

I can NEVER get away with anything.

I always see people who do whatever they want such as climbing over fences for shortcuts, sharing homework, and taking too much food from a church buffet. They show no remorse and just go one and get away with it!

But can I do it?

NO!

If I ever do anything dishonest or excessive, I get punished for it, right away!

EXAMPLES:

1. In 10th grade, went to Magic Mountain with youth group (when I was president) and told them "don't lose your parners or you're screwed!" AND I LOST MY PARTNER! more like she followed some guy that she thought was me halfway to the other side of the park! (4 hours of looking and searching (she had no phone)) ruined my entire day.

2. Freshman year, was mean to a guy, and later "used him" for a ride to the mall for banquet shopping. Thought all was well and went to go eat out afterwards, but at the restaurant, placed my order and they forgot it. Got my food 5 minutes before everyone finished and asked for the check. Lonely dining without food. Put it in a box, which I stupidly left at the restaurant.

3. Two weeks ago, realized that a customer left a dollar accidently. Could have gone after her, but didn't. Had the worst two weeks ever! Today, saw her and gave it back to her. Feeling of peace.

SOME THINGS I DON'T DO ANYMORE
1. Buy expensive clothes (they always get ruined one way or another, no matter what!) The colors malfunction (even after handwashing), jeans get ripped, shoes get ripped.

2. Look at bad stuff on the internet (I got punished badly when I did this) I still remember the last date I did this was May 9, 2004. I realized that even doing this in secret was hurting my family and not setting a good example for my brother.

3. Take what's not mine. I hate it when people take my stuff but if I take other people's stuff, I get punished.

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On another note, I realized that all this time, I have been complaining about my circumstances and how I can't afford the things I use to and how I can't graduate this year, but I realize that there are people who have a lot less than I do. Looking at many of the people here, A lot less.

EXAMPLES:
1. Not everyone can go to college. Most people don't have the fiancial means. For most people I've seen around here, life is just a fight for survival. With 5 brothers and sisters at home, for many, going to college is not an option.

2. Money to save. It's one thing to have money to pay the rent and for food, but it's an entire different story to have money to save. For people here, losing $5.00 is a huge deal, considering that the minimum wage isn't even $7.00.

3. Having a job. I use to be SO angry that I had to give up a white collar job at an office with my own desk and computer. I realize now, that I took that for granted. There are so many people who would kill for what I had. Here, getting promoted to manager at a fast food restaurant is a huge deal. I see parents proudly bragging that their middle aged children are managing Dairy Queens and Arby's. There are people around here who can't even find work at the market. Having a job alone is something to be very proud of, no matter what it is.

4. Decent Clothing. Here, many people wear their t-shirts inside out. Reason is, because they can't afford to do laundry. I see people wearing the same shirt with holes in it every day.

5. A loving family. So many people here have parents who had them and didn't love them. I can see it in their eyes and how they treat their children. They will buy their cigarettes and if their 5 year old kid asks for some candy, they say "No, I am getting MY stuff, you get your own"